2019年11月19日星期二

最近的心情-忙碌、迷茫

隔了一年，再次回来写部落格啦~

这次想要写写最近的心情😁

得知要接手教会关怀部之后，突然就变得好忙好忙，或者可以说是迷茫，不懂要从何做起，不懂要怎样开始，不懂要如何准备明年的计划，好多好多的不懂。。。

然后又突然的收到邀请要参加这个聚会，那个聚会，突然觉得很多人要关怀，但是我就觉得我好像做不了，好像很多东西等着我去做，生怕我顾不到全方面，忽略了哪一方。

昨夜睡前一直在思考和祷告，若不是耶稣的爱，我想我不会想要拿起关怀部，我是关怀部部长，那谁来关心我？😏

最后今天，透过灵修，我明白了：

金句：耶穌說：「要我為你做甚麼？」-馬可福音10章51節
在小說《納尼亞傳奇》中，名為「老脾氣」的老鼠劍客可算是最英勇的人物。他揮舞刀劍，奮不顧身地投入戰役，克服恐懼搭上「黎明行者號」航向黑暗之島。是什麼令他無所畏懼？這是因為他一心尋求亞斯藍的國度。他說：「那是我心中所願。」他明白自己內心真切的渴望，這也引領他走向他的國王。

巴底買是耶利哥城一個瞎眼的乞丐，一天當他如往常坐在路旁乞討時，聽到耶穌與群眾從旁經過，就喊著說：「大衛的子孫耶穌啊，可憐我吧！」（馬可福音10章47節）他雖遭到許多人斥責，卻依舊不停地大聲呼喊。

即使人潮擁擠，耶穌仍願傾聽巴底買的心聲。「耶穌就站住」（49節）並且問巴底買：「要我為你做甚麼？」（51節）

耶穌當然知道巴底買的需要，但祂似乎要巴底買瞭解自己真正的需要，並親口表達自己內心的渴望。巴底買說：「我要能看見！」（51節）耶穌就立即讓他看見了色彩、美麗的事物和朋友臉上的神情，滿心喜樂地跟隨主！

並非我們所有的願望或渴求都能立即得到滿足，而且這些渴求通常都要改變以合乎上帝的心意。在這裡最重要的是，巴底買明白自己的需要並向耶穌懇求。只要我們細心留意，便會發現你我內心真正的渴求總是會引領我們到祂面前。

什麼是你心中真切的渴求？這份渴望如何引領你歸向耶穌？

我还想再分享我从短文里看到一些的句子，觉得很有意思，这也让我去思考为啥我们要那么忙碌。

1）没有一份工作是不需要辛苦付出的，成功的人从不随便诉苦。
2）不管什么年纪，觉得委屈的时候，还是可以大哭一场的，但是哭完以后，你的生活还得继续。
3）人生是很累，但你现在不累，以后只会更累。

谢谢大家使用了宝贵的时间读我的废话 😉😉😉😄😄😄

附上我在Bangkok最喜欢的餐厅外拍的照片💙💙💙💙

2018年10月27日星期六

Chumphon Mission Trip 2018

记录一下，好让以后还记得这个心情和感觉😎😎😎

14th-21st Oct 2018
Was my first mission trip to Chumphon, Thailand.
Was my experience to overnight in train with church mates.
Was my first time to take up the responsibility as VBS music teacher.
Was my first time being proactive to start a conversation with strangers during mission trip.

过了四年，再次开始写部落格，写写自己对这次短宣的感想、心得、感言。

回想应该是2017年吧，因为换了工作，所以没得拿假去Chumphon短宣，所以就给自己做了一个决定，若是2018年短宣不是在quarter end (March, June, Sep, Dec) 举办，那就不管怎样都要去参加。结果得知今年是在10月份，那我就下定决心去报名了，我想我应该是第一个报名的吧！哈哈（不知羞耻😆😆）

好了，报名了，假也请了，那就没问题了。可是上帝却抛了一个难题给我，就是我要带领Music Station，也就是我要学舞蹈然后再教小孩子跳舞！这简直就是...我的心情和言语都不能形容😓😓😓 这真的是我25岁最大的挑战，虽然我参加了应该有3，4次短宣吧（忘记了），但我都是以帮手的身份来参与短宣，没想到这次我却要以带领的身份来参加短宣。突然就倍感压力。感谢神因为今年的营会就只有60到70位的小孩，2017年的听说是400到500位小孩子。

说说我要成为VBS教舞蹈的老师的感想，起初，我还希望中间能够有人来取代我的，因为我真不想拿起这舞蹈的身份。前三个月，还有3个人练习慢慢增加到5个人最后减少到只剩2个人，顿时觉得真的是要接受现实了。练习3个月里，脚和腰都不知为何的疼痛和酸痛，最大挑战是我不知道要如何控制我的脸部表情，但是不知为何心里还是保持平静，一点着急感都没有。最后还是硬着头皮的去了。感谢神！三天的营会都平安顺利的完成了，我想我收获了很多孩子美好的眼神，感受到他们有多么多么的想要学新的舞蹈。每次回想，听到他们很大声的回应我的口令，我就觉得很高兴，很欣慰，一切的辛苦汗水疼痛都值得了。😊😊

还有一件事就是我特别特别的感动，一定要记录以免我多年后忘记了。这事情是发生在第二天的营会，我就只是想说我随便在孩子群中走走吧。结果有个女孩名字叫做phingphing，她先开口跟我说 “ I miss you! “ 顿时我也不知为何就马上回应”Thank you, I miss you too!” 接下来我们两个见面就开始以 I miss you 为口号，搞笑吧！哈哈哈哈！

回看一切，真的很感恩感谢神，真的是帮助改变我，使得我愿意的放下自己的面子，放开的去跳舞，尝试主动的去跟陌生人说话、建立关系。平时在教会看到我的aunty也觉得我变了！哈哈哈！

最后，要谢谢教我舞蹈的姐妹，辛苦你了！谢谢让我们使用他的舞蹈教室的弟兄！谢谢大家的体谅和照顾！

好啦，谢谢大家读了和看了我长长的感言！Thanks for reading!!😘😘

接下来就是照片的时间!

We sit KTM from Butterworth to Padang Besar.

Group Photo in train when heading to Chumphon!

So happy food is here, but we feel cheated because we purchased from wrong seller.

Feel so happy when the cup is big and filled with ice. Milo Ice!!

Chit- Chat before sleep - This is the situation in train. We reached Chumphon around 3am (Malaysia Time)

Prepare to set up decoration for VBS.

Coffee needed for everyday in Chumphon! Hahaha!

Music Station

We celebrate aunty Chiew Ying's birthday! The cake is nice! Yummy!

Have a visit to Chumphon seaside. The color of the sky is very very very...don't know how to elaborate... God's creation amazing!!!

The first girl I met in Chumphon that attended VBS camp.

Chicken! Nice! First photo with pastor Daphne.

The girl beside me is called Phing Phing who is the first one said ' I miss you' to me! hahahahaha

Wefie #1

Wefie #2

Wefie #3

My dance supporter!! Always dance and won't feel tired! He love to dance!

Wefie #4

The quietest girl I met!

Wefie #5

Helpers!

Big Group Photo!

Wefie with chicken! 我的生肖！

One of the best seafood I tried!!

Malaysia Team vs Thailand Team

I knew them more during this mission trip!! 人不可貌相！

Videos of performance!

Last practice and we feel not good enough!😆😆

Learning section! 'Who You are'

Opening worship performance by teachers & helpers!👍👍

VBS Theme Song (Galactic Starveyors)

Performance by Jupiter & Neptune Groups.😍😍😍😍😍

Performance #1 'Over the moon'

Performance #2 'Sin messed everything up!'

Performance #3 'Who You Are'

Performance #4 'How Far Love Goes‘

Performance #5 'Stars’

Thank you for your patient!!!

2016年11月11日星期五

After Gospel Game

Hi readers~

Will use English & Chinese to write, please forgive my poor english grammar 😂😂

Firstly,
I am refuse to join the camp as below reasons:
1. One of the day is my birthday, I plan to go somewhere else to celebrate my birthday.
2. No one is free accompany me to attend, I dislike one person to attend a event without anyone I know.

I prayed to God, if you send one person accompany me to go then I will go, and at last God say, 'I am the one who always be with you forever no matter where you go".

Yes.Luckily I have been to the Gospel Game, if not, definitely I will regret if I din attend this camp.

I have learnt few things overcome some difficulties through this Gospel Game:
1. Overcome my fear
- Which is not brave enough to talk with strangers. Thanks God, I have try to take the first step and keep improve it.

2. This camp main language is English. I am lack of confidence when use English to communicate with people, but through this camp, I am force to use English to communicate with people thus it helps me to built the confidence.

3. Through this camp, we knew that there have a lot of people did not listen about "GOOD NEWS" at all. It remind us, we should go out and share, not only share we also need to follow up with them too.

4. Don't stop or reduce church serving although you are very busy about your work. We may try our best to do as much as we can.

Matthew 16:26King James Version (KJV) For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?

馬太福音 16:26 人若賺得全世界，賠上自己的生命，有什麼益處呢？人還能拿什麼換生命呢？

2016年10月16日星期日

16 Oct 2016

距离没写快两年了。
说长不长，说短不短，这些日子变化了不少，好朋友没了，开始进入社会工作了。
读书时代和工作时代不同，读书时代可以时间自由但是没收入，工作时代有收入了可是没有时间自由了。

好久没好好安静的坐下思考，总是因着身边的人的要求而忙碌，已忙碌到失去了自己。
因怕朋友对你的失望，而不敢拒绝他人的邀约
因怕朋友对你的抱怨，而一直为他人改变
因怕朋友对你失去了信心，而一直的去迎合对方
忙碌到底为了什么？

其实好矛盾，孤单时想找人陪；人多时却想一个人静静

还有几十天就快进入23岁了，想说：
没有想谈恋爱是骗人的。
等待是需要很多耐心，等待一位好男友出现更是考验我对上帝的信心。

等待中.....

2014年12月25日星期四

Christmas 2014

Christmas is over!!!!
left 4 days then is another new year 2015!!
Looking forward to my internship and my graduation!hahahaha (not sure can graduate successfully or not)
Thanks God for giving me such a meaningful Christmas celebration this year.
Thanks God for giving me have a chance to feel the love that given by a family in Christ.

Anyway,i feel so grateful that God Blessed me so much throughout this year.

Its all about my Christmas in 2014!And this year is the most meaningful and full appointment Christmas celebration throughout my 21 years life. I really feel so blessed and appreciate it!